life is crazy right now. crazy. i helped sabrina clean house to get ready to put it on the market on thursday and cut my finger on a cactus. then i went to top drawer where i volunteer and shot off part of another finger with the pricing gun. so two bandaids and two boo boo's later, i look like a nerd. rough day on the hands.

rough weekend for the soul too. i am packing my life's collections into brown cardboard boxes to re-dump in the Eades garage. sigh. how can i be moving back to waco and returning to my job at the buzz? i'm rooming with a 9 year old.

actually, it'll be great. i'm just so emotional right now . . . packing, moving, trying to find a job, (the right job), receiving love and words of wishes from my friends. how can i feel so old and feel so young at the same time? when will life begin?

except that i've got it all wrong, and its already begun. mine just doesn't look like everyone else's. well, it looks more like the lives of my friends here in austin . . . but it certainly doesn't look like anyone's that i went to college with. they have careers, houses, salaries, stability, husbands and children even. strange how we could be the same age and have the same education and yet be in such different places.

but blah blah blah. everyone down here is thinking "i've heard this before. it's the same old same old. write something new or funny." and everyone up there (missouri and beyond) is thinking, "get a job you freak."

oh well. the melting pot of my life. god only knows what'll get thrown in next.